Saw my childhood crush today. I guess he could still be called a “current” crush, because some feelings still exist to a degree. Have any of you ever had someone like that? A person you had feelings for when you were younger who has always managed to linger somewhere at the back of your mind? That’s what this boy is to me. Our mothers have been friends since they were in their twenties - I even refer to his mom as my ‘aunt’ Patty, because she might as well be.
Anyway, her son Danny and I were friends when we were kids, and even though we ended up losing touch over the years aside from some infrequent meetings (he never really lived with his mother and always sort of did his own thing), I always managed to carry a torch for him regardless, though it’s always been innocent enough.
Finally, I was able to see him again (I think four or five years had passed since the last time.) Immediately I could feel those old feelings resurfacing. He grew up to be so polite and handsome, and he has a good sense of humor, so we immediately had a bit of a rapport going.
Unsurprisingly, he has a girlfriend. He’s always been the type that was never single for long. I suppose that made the reunion bittersweet - we got along well, which is nice, but he’s just as unattainable as he’s always been. It’s almost saddening in a way, that every one of my crushes left me just admiring the person from afar, but there’s nothing I can do about it.
At the very least, it was nice for all of us to get together again, and I’m glad to see that he and his brother (who I also hadn’t seen in years) are doing well. I don’t want to dwell on what will never be. This was a nice visit to (and from) my past, but that’s where everything needs to stay. No good would come from bringing any old feelings to the present.