It made me somewhat sad to see a very loving and heartfelt inscription in a used book that was recently purchased for me on Amazon (from a seller whose items originate from a Goodwill in California). I wonder how it ended up in my hands and why it was given away in the first place. Wish I knew.

Told my mom how the guy I like was in the marines and is currently a volunteer firefighter (and plans to study nursing in school.)

Her: Wow, he does everything. Aren’t you embarrassed of yourself? You don’t even get out of bed on the weekends.

I feel like school kicked me in the face today. I’m just so worn out right now. I had an awful experience with a project for my presentations class. My partner took no initiative and was near impossible to communicate with effectively. We were required to present a video (which we managed to get done, to my immense surprise), and he had the final copy of it on his computer.

Problem is, he never showed up to class (and didn’t warn me ahead of time, even though I asked him multiple times if he was coming), and there was a point in time where I wasn’t even sure if he would bother sending me the file in any form. Thankfully, he took some time out of his busy schedule to inform me that it had been uploaded to the internet, but that was all I got out of him. To get to the point: I’m extremely glad that nightmare is over, and I made a point not to let myself get paired with him for the next assignment.

The most interesting part of the day was seeing my crush in the halls today. When he smiled and said hello to me, it honestly felt as though a hand was clenching around my heart. It was the strangest sensation. Not to mention very uncomfortable. I’m certain I was blushing as well, but he wouldn’t have been able to notice. I don’t even think he likes me all that much in any sense of the word, but oh well. That tends to be the story of my life.

My second day at Comic Con was equally awesome (for the most part.) I got Sean Astin’s autograph as well as a hug from him, and I met Adam West and Carrie Fisher. Pretty bummed that I didn’t meet Seth Green or the cast of The Walking Dead, but I’m devastated that I missed the cast of Firefly. One day Nathan Fillion, one day.

I ended up buying a lot of really awesome art yesterday, and once again, I saw tons of amazing costumes. Including a very handsome and gentlemanly Ezio Auditore who had some sick hidden blades. I was planning on returning today, but I’m feeling pretty exhausted after an intense two days. So all in all I had a wonderful experience at my first con. Now I just need to wait for next year :(

500+ Followers

This post is a little overdue, since I’m a few followers over 500 already, but I still felt that this was worth writing. I just wanted to thank each and every one of you for helping me to reach this very exciting milestone. As I believe I’ve said before in similar posts, I joined tumblr without knowing what I wanted to get out of it, and I didn’t take this whole blogging thing very seriously at the start. That earlier indifference is worth noting each time, because I’m continuously surprised by the wonderful community of crazy bloggers that I stumbled onto.

I know 500 may not seem like much to some people around here, but it’s amazing to me. I’m still in awe over the sheer volume of wonderful people I’ve met on this website. So many of you have been kind, supportive, and very good listeners when you had no sense of obligation or true reason motivating you to speak with me. Thank you all for enjoying my blog. Thank you for reading my personal posts and offering me feedback and advice even when I hadn’t expected or asked for it. Thank you for being exemplary human beings and friends. Sure, a lot of people say it, but I know my followers are the best.

Saw my childhood crush today. I guess he could still be called a “current” crush, because some feelings still exist to a degree. Have any of you ever had someone like that? A person you had feelings for when you were younger who has always managed to linger somewhere at the back of your mind? That’s what this boy is to me. Our mothers have been friends since they were in their twenties - I even refer to his mom as my ‘aunt’ Patty, because she might as well be.

Anyway, her son Danny and I were friends when we were kids, and even though we ended up losing touch over the years aside from some infrequent meetings (he never really lived with his mother and always sort of did his own thing), I always managed to carry a torch for him regardless, though it’s always been innocent enough.

Finally, I was able to see him again (I think four or five years had passed since the last time.) Immediately I could feel those old feelings resurfacing. He grew up to be so polite and handsome, and he has a good sense of humor, so we immediately had a bit of a rapport going.

Unsurprisingly, he has a girlfriend. He’s always been the type that was never single for long. I suppose that made the reunion bittersweet - we got along well, which is nice, but he’s just as unattainable as he’s always been. It’s almost saddening in a way, that every one of my crushes left me just admiring the person from afar, but there’s nothing I can do about it.

At the very least, it was nice for all of us to get together again, and I’m glad to see that he and his brother (who I also hadn’t seen in years) are doing well. I don’t want to dwell on what will never be. This was a nice visit to (and from) my past, but that’s where everything needs to stay. No good would come from bringing any old feelings to the present.